2018 was just plain hard! By mid-January 2019, I still had no strong sense of what my 2019 MOW was to be, but I knew to be still and rest in His provision. And then in His great faithfulness, He showed me “with”; He is inviting me into an intentional year of “with” Him that will require being present, practicing boundaries, and observing Sabbath. 2, 3, & 4 letter words are literally jumping off the page as I read His word and it punctuates His initial invitation to embrace the “with” – be Present, practice Boundaries, & observe Sabbath rest. Sometimes the 3 take no more than a few moments, while at other times I find Him giving me the gift of 14 minutes or a few hours! Moments, minutes, hours – I learning to receive the “with” Him as precious and irrevocable.
2019 continues to be really hard. We face a raging Red Sea, but I am confident that my God is bigger than I thought He was; my fears and doubts don’t scare Him! I choose to rest in His strong hands and leave the rest in His strong hands! I am trusting Him to split the sea so I can walk right through it!
I have a strong sense of God’s presence with me; though it looks nothing like I want it to, I’m learning the see beauty in the uncertainty and worship Him in resolved trust and obedience.
It’s good! It isn’t easy; it’s stinking hard, but it is so good!