I have always considered myself a realist. My mind often gets stuck on the fact that the glass really is half empty. I know it is half full too, but I want 100%, not 50%. And, if I have already lost 50%, I stand the risk of losing the other 50. So I stress over the lost 50 and battle to keep the remaining 50. I have never allowed myself to be at peace that I enjoyed the first 50 and there is 50 left to enjoy and I am capable of finding 50 more if that is my top priority. I need to allow myself peace to realize I can’t maintain and control everything. The stress has caused too many problems for me and those around me far too long. I need peace now!