My One Word: PASSION
For the longest time, I’ve always known that I want to live passionately, but I’ve never really figured out what I’m passionate about. Others are passionate about their craft, their sport, or something else. As for me, I have always been interested with a gazillion things, but I don’t have that one things I’m so passionate about that I would be willing to expend my last bit of energy for. Hence, I have always been in the chase for what I’m passionate about.. and even at the end of 2013, I still have not figured out what it is.
But the things is, I’ve been in the wrong kind of chase. You see, even in the beginning of my chase, I have always had Jesus with me. Sometimes, my focus was too much on what that chase would produce that I have set Him aside every once in a while.. maybe a bit more frequent when it becomes all too frustrating. When I realized that I have made 2013 more about me than what it should really be about, I realized that I have been in the wrong.
As I’ve shared in my previous posts, 2014, nor any other year, will never be my year, because each year is God’s. If I let myself be the center of it, I will be taking away what is supposed to be for whom who should be most glorified. Hence, as I make this year to be more about God, I, by the grace of God, will put Jesus first and will be passionate about Him more than anything nor anyone else. I remember what Jose Villanueva a.k.a. Quest shared during the Singles’ Getaway in October 2011.. He said that when your first passion is Christ, you can trust all your other passions.
I still do want to live passionately for something.. first, not only must I live, but I want to live passionately for Jesus. I will let Him lead me to the other passions He wants me to be concerned about. If it’s with His go signal, what else must I concern myself about?
Psalm 37:4 echoes,
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
This time, it’s not so much about knowing what God will place in my heart to be passionate about (after Him, that is), but it’s about trusting that He will.. when I first delight myself in Him. Passion for Jesus.. First!
I like what John Piper shares in his book, Desiring God, and this is something that my friends Gwen, Gracie and Pearl have echoed the past week:
God is most glorified in us, when we are most satisfied in Him.
Truly, that is my goal this year.. to be simply most satisfied in God, to enjoy Him just as I would any other whom I love in my life.. except that let Him be the person I am able to enjoy the most, in the highest level possible.
2014 for me is about PASSION. Passion for Jesus first and from which everything else will just flow into other passions.