I have Surrender for so many reasons. I have grown up not really under standing what love was. I have always been the punching bag for others. I have been full of so much pain and hurt for so long. It was not until my father passed away a few months ago that I started to question why my life was full of so much pain and hurt. I had a really hard time dealing with the loss of my father. Funny thing is my father and never has the close father daughter relationship but him him being gone was something that I just could not accept that he was gone. I could see my life falling apart right before my eyes. A couple weeks ago during Sunday service the pastor of my church told us to go home and start thinking of a word that fits our life or fits a change we want to make in our life. I thought that surrender was perfect for me. If I am able to surrender to God all of pain and hurt that I have been carrying for years then I can finally live a free life. A life that is not weighted down by all the hurt and pain any longer.