I’ve always believed God loved me, because he had to, because he’s God and said he would.
I’ve never been unconditionally loved so I have little trust in anyone.

I’ve had ALOT of health problems the past 3 years progressively losing abilities and becoming more & more isolated. I didn’t “feel” closer to God in the past year when things got to be the worst, in fact I’d wonder at times if he too had left me. BUT…despite my “feelings” I can now see that God has been with me all along, he knew what was coming, he knew how it would play out. Painfully and horribly. He provided all my needs and none of my wants. This makes me want to know him more, so this year I will know he is “with” me and “in” me. “Within”, so it’s not about “me” anymore and I from now on, I believe he loves me because he chose me.