January 26, 2011
I havent picked my word yet.
Its really, really hard to chose just one area of your life to work on for the entire year. And then you get into the challenge of coming up with a word that has multiple meanings so that you can creatively shove a lifetime worth of change into one year. This is another helpful exercise to prolong the commitment to one word. Believe me, I have excused and stalled so much my head spins.
So here I sit, after procrastinating the writing of this post until I chose a word. Im writing now, not because I have a word. But because I am learning so much more in the process of picking a word than I expected.
Im realizing that I have a lot to work on, hence the dilemma in picking my one word.
As a relatively new believer, I have a lot to learn. You wont find my writings peppered with scripture because, to be honest, I am not well versed enough to know my well, verses. So, theres a word possibility. Educate. Or something a little more inventive.
I also want to make a change this year in the way I raise my two small children. I want them to know the God that I didnt know until I was in my late 20s. Sure, we pray together and we incorporate Biblical teachings into several life moments each day. But I want to do more. I want to be a better teacher all day, every day. Not just when I notice the swift kick in the rear from the Holy Spirit. So, theres a thought. Consistency. Or something a little more jazzy.
Another area that I want to work on this year is being a better steward of His money. After a crazy economy turned our household income inside out and upside down last year, we were forced to make big changes. We are hanging on by a thread but we are hanging on. This year, I want to climb that thread and conquer our new financial situation. I want to make the resources that He blesses us with work for us. Wisely. Consistently. Calmly. Knowing that all will be okay as long as we continue to put our faith in the Lord and act as good stewards of His provision. So, steward. Maybe?
I could go on and on with the words that pop in my mind, stay a while, only to leave because I cant come up with a way to creatively combine them into one. Because I cant come up with a word that sounds compelling or that will garner the oooh, thats a great word from friends. Or because I get stuck in the well, I probably need to focus on something bigger than just that. And the word selection circle goes round and round and round.
Another big challenge is the thought that, whatever word I choose to work on for the year, God will move on. That scares me. If I choose steward, is He going to give me a chance to learn better stewardship by challenging us financially even more than we are already challenged? If I chose educate or consistency, am I going to be placed in a position in which I am uncomfortable in order to learn that lesson?
The answer to my questions, I know. Or Im pretty sure I do. Yes. Yes. Yes, silly, yes. Isnt that the purpose of the My One Word project? Choosing a word that challenges us to grow? To create a vision for our future so that we can improve our character?
Eek. Change? Improve? That sounds hard.
But having pondered this word choice day and night, even sometimes saying I dont need to pick a word Ill just work on everything this year, I have come to a conclusion. I need a word. I need a word to help me focus. To take this overwhelming feeling of a needed all-over change one step at a time. One year, one word, at a time. I am going to commit to this challenge. I am going to commit to change.
Now. I just need a word. I have till February 1, right?
Boy, this project is not for wimps.
Hilary Brady is a freelance writer, marketing consultant and copywriter that has called PC3 home since it saved her spiritual life in 2008. More information about Hilarys journey can be found at peanutandpoppy.wordpress.com and samples of her professional work can be seen at hbrady.com.