Latest Entry For: commendatory

Over the past few years, my life has gone through a lot of change. My husband and I became foster parents and adopted two beatiful girls. This 2 year process took me into depths of humanity I didn’t know existed. I became accustomed to negative talk, unadmirable lifestyles, not having enough time to worship, putting everything first and have become unappreciative to others and adverse in my discussions with others. Over the past few weeks, i have recognized this in myself. Negative thoughts just popping in and I don’t like it. This last spring it seemed that even with the joy of the adoption, my spirit was condensed from several calamities around our home with almost every appliance breaking and 2 water leaks. Oh the Whoa is me syndrome has come upon me like a flood. Even when things are great, which they are most of the time, I day dream about what is wrong. So it is time for me to get it together… Re-learn to compliment others, admire them, be positive for my kids, appreciate my husband and let the house get dirty when I need and want to praise and worship my Lord. I am going to work very hard at filling my being with the love God so freely gives.. What is there not to be happy about. We are the richest people in the world and have the freedom of worshipping our God. I want to listen more thoughtfully, help others, speak the words of wisdom and kindness and be someone who others say what is different about this person. And have them know that is only God whom can make this change in me.