In three years I lost two siblings, a brother-in-law, my dog, my job, my savings, my car, my home, my kids, many friends and many relationships. I went thru a devastating break-up and an abusive relationship. I tried to numb my pain with alcohol and ended up with a DUI – loss of my state license, jail time, fees, fines, costs, humiliation. I now do not have a home. I have a place to stay, but I do not have a home. I have no outside life and I have no one to go thru these times with me. I have a very ill parent that I will be losing soon. My life is a pile of ashes, nothing is intact, no part of my life has remained unbroken. I feel I’ve lost everything I ever loved and fought so hard to keep. Year after year of this same storm has beaten me up and beaten me down. My heart is broken beyond recognition, my LIFE is broken beyond recognition. Everything I own is in a storage facility and my part-part time job at $12/hr does not promise me much of a future. I grieve for my kids, for my home, for my life. I grieve for who I once was. Who do I want to be? Myself again, only better. Not the me that turned to alcohol or stayed in an abusive relationship. Not the me that screwed up everything in her life. No – the me I was meant to be and will never be without God’s help. Restore. Please, God, restore my heart, my spirit, my mind, my home, my family, my relationships, my finances, my hopes and dreams, my laughter, my security, my safety, my happiness, my faith, my joy and peace. There’s not one single area of my life that doesn’t need restoration.